My past scared me from ever doing this and something I hadn’t thought about that it took away…

I can’t think of a better way to start the week.

Let’s get right into my random thoughts:

*My shoes, which I painted my nails orange to match, arrived. My friend, Jess, swears by these beauties, so I had to try them. As far as I can remember, this is my first pair of New Balance!

*Our chicks are quite photogenic.

*I ran out of my favorite hair mask (I use it as a conditioner every time I wash my hair) from Trader Joe’s and asked Andrew to pick some up while he was out doing errands…. He came up with this bundle. He gets me. I’ll never run out again.

*Always, two different shoes.

*Take me back to my run one month ago today:

*I could hang out at a track all day long and watch people run.

*When you love ranch with your pizza so much that you bring your own to pizza night at someone else’s house.

*When you make banana cream pie but forget to cook the crusts first, and then you don’t realize until the first bite. Good thing uncooked pie crusts don’t taste too bad;)

*It has been 9 years since our first date!

*We’ve had our niece staying with us for the past few days, and I want her to move in permanently.

*The other day, I was thinking about the hobbies I’ve fallen in love with in my 30s and started thinking about the ones I want to develop in my 40s. And then I thought about my hobbies in my 20s and couldn’t think of many that didn’t involve burning calories. In my late 20s, I went through a divorce and was a new single mom, so I’ll give myself a pass there, but those other years? I had never really thought about how my eating disorder in those years took away that time for me to learn about myself and find things that bring me joy. And that gave me a pit in my stomach. There wasn’t time or energy for me to invest in figuring out myself more, because my mind was focused elsewhere. I feel so grateful to have hobbies now. I missed out on those for quite some time, and I feel fortunate to have them now. And I most definitely need to make up for that lost time by doing even more;)

*Once I got out of my eating disorder (more on this here), I have always been so afraid of coming anywhere near my nutrition/tracking/changing it because I was so afraid that I would relapse. I felt like just eating intuitively forever would be my answer to a happy and healthy life, free of an eating disorder. But now that it’s been quite some time and changes are ahead (perimenopause, aging, muscle loss with aging, etc), it’s been quite freeing to explore my nutrition without falling into my old ways. Eating to feel a certain way vs eating to look a certain way. I can’t tell you the difference I’m feeling from being consistent with getting enough protein each day (because, naturally, I don’t eat nearly enough protein). While eating intuitively is so important, so is making sure I’m getting enough of specific nutrients. Long story short, thanks for joining me for my life roller coaster, and let me be a part of yours, too. I love being able to put pieces together with you and take steps towards our fullest potential.

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Have any random thoughts to share today??

What hobbies/skills are you looking to develop over the next decade?

Who runs in New Balance? Which ones?

Ranch + pizza? Anyone else?